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single-minded August 4, 2008

Posted by Madeline in Uncategorized.

After about two weeks of hand-wringing, despairing the hollow pain in my throat and neck, and tossing through sleepless nights, I’ve finally found a groove in making some major revisions to my dissertation.

It’s been physically painful, these past weeks, sitting at the computer with a stack of printed chapters at my right. I’d stare from the stack of paper to my computer screen…*blink blink* a couple times, and have absolutely no idea where to start. The introduction needed complete tear down and re-build. But I couldn’t really re-write the intro before I made major changes to nearly every chapter. But I couldn’t make any major changes to any of the chapters without having a better idea of how those changes would affect the overall project…and so I needed a good introduction to tell me what the overall project would look like so I could make the changes to the chapters.

*blink blink*

And I apologize to all of you who could give two shits about my writing process. I imagine it’s boring as hell to listen to me ramble, in the abstract no less, about an esoteric project. But it is all-consuming for me. Which brings me to the title of this post: when I am in a writing space as productive as this, the sacrifices are fairly significant. The boys didn’t eat lunch today until 2:30. And all they did before and after lunch was WATCH TV. Thank god for the Cartoon Network. I have not showered today. The dishes, laundry, and bathrooms all need attention. I’m ignoring the phone and most email. I have not run in 6 days, and the marathon that I’m ostensibly training for in October will probably be another killer like Albany was for me last October: I’ll start out on the freshest legs I’ve ever had (because I won’t have run in weeks), feel great until mile 13, and then I’ll want to throw myself into the bushes with the cow patties for the balance of the race.



1. Becky Howard - August 5, 2008

Wait! Wait! You’re describing ME! Except that I don’t have those two lovely boys. Nor the 13-mile legs. But everything else? So glad to know other writers suffer similarly. Ain’t it great?

2. mryonker - August 5, 2008

It is great. Honestly. My poor family suffers in a way that’s good for them (need a dish for cereal? then WASH ONE! AMAZING CONCEPT!), and I get work done.

It’s just a shame that *I* have to suffer such damning writer’s block before my brain can start flowing again. *sigh*

3. deloosemoose - August 5, 2008

Damned right that your family is “suffering” in a way that is good for them – you’re teaching them to be self sufficient and independent. You’re modeling perseverance, a strong work ethic and the value of education. The dishes, laundry and bathrooms (and dare I say it – even the RUNNING) can all wait.

You can do this. I have 100% faith in your ability to produce and defend a stellar, extraordinary diss.

Hang in there.

4. Kristen - August 5, 2008

Hang in there, kiddo. They (dishes, cartoons, marathons, dissertations) will be over before you know it.

5. bbmom - August 5, 2008

I’m still here for another week if you want them gone!

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